Fight for Your Life…

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Let’s face it.  We are all going through “something” — some more than others.  Today, you might be feeling as though you are about to fall off the “cliff of life” because you don’t see a way out of your circumstances.  I beg to differ; however, you are in for the fight of your life!  Stop sitting around feeling sorry for yourself and questioning why and sitting in the corner holding your head in your hands and doing nothing.  You have to FIGHT FOR YOUR LIFE!

Today, I want you to put on your “imaginary” boxing gloves, and choose your stance all the while grounding your feet into the floor to make sure you are stable.  I, then, want you to “pretend” to punch the living daylights out of those issues after asking them “if they want some of this”.  Uppercut depression.  Right jab low self-esteem.  Use the hook move to take out anger and hurt.  Use the cross technique to crush loneliness.  Tell those problems that you will not be defeated!

Your opponent (issues) hit you pretty hard, and knocked the wind out of you.  Catch your breath and get back in there.  You were punched so hard that you lost your footing, and felt like you were unable to get back up.  You just wanted to lie there in agony, but you can’t.  As the referee is counting, don’t let him get to ten.  Slowly rise to your feet, and resume your stance.  Look those matters, that are causing you stress, straight in the eye and say, “I’m not done yet”.  Put on your “mean mug”.  While you are handling your business, hear your supporters rooting for you.  They are loudly cheering you on.  They are screaming “You can do it.  Don’t give up”.  Now is not the time to throw in the towel.  You only have a few more minutes to go in this round.  Bluff your opponent by putting on your game face; you don’t want it to be known just how hurt you are because the same spot will be hammered and could be potentially fatal.  When you are dealt a blow, give several blows in return.  Learn how to bob and weave.  Stay off the ropes.

Some of “life’s punches”, can be blocked by you being preventive; avoid those pitfalls that are visible.  Don’t go left when you know you should go right.  I’ve been in a fight most of my life, but didn’t realize it at the time; I just felt people didn’t care too much for me.  Folk loved to say some very unkind things.  Once I was told that my sister looked better than I did.  I was also told that I would never have anything or amount to anything.  Those things could have taken me out and, quite frankly, they almost did because I believed those hurtful words.  However, I took my life back by being the driver rather than the passenger.  I’ve had many “bruises” and have been knocked down more times than I can count, but I thank God that I’m still here to tell the story.

Now, I realize you’re tired, but I implore you to hang in there.  Your very existence depends on it.  Catch your breath.  Drink some water.  Use your inhaler.  Pray.  Cry.  Whatever you do, get up!

It Was Tough, But I Came Out Victorious!

No matter what is happening in your life, stay in the ring and remember #GurlYouGotItGoinOn.

Feeling Unloved…

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One of the many reasons for my “depressed state” was because I “felt” unloved.  I actually thought that if I were gone, no one would miss me due to the fact that I believed I played an extremely insignificant part in anyone’s life.  Pretty sad, huh?  I know.  I know.  Feelings can really mess you up because that wasn’t the case at all.  There were people who did love me, and showed me but not in the way that I was always able to identify with as a kid.  I was too busy focusing on those who didn’t “show” me the love, which nearly destroyed me.

When I was a teenager, I once overheard one relative say to another relative “I don’t know what he sees in her (meaning my boyfriend at that time).  She was never attractive”.  In comes that saying, “Every shut-eye ain’t sleep”.  They thought I was sleeping, so they “dissed” me.  I don’t know if the ex-boyfriend heard the conversation because I never asked him.  Can you imagine how devastated I was?  These were people who I loved and cared for.  We were family, so I’m sure I must have had some of the same features as them.  How could they say something so cruel?  Did they actually think that about me?  Years later, I approached one of them about it, and was told it never happened.  I must have imagined it, right?  Wow!  Really?

What they didn’t know was that I was already struggling with my self-worth.  I didn’t like one single thing about me.  I thought I was ugly (in part because that’s how I was made to feel), I was skinny as a rail (couldn’t gain weight no matter how much food I consumed), my hair refused to grow like my friend’s, and I had bad body odor (no matter how much I washed or bathed).

My life spun out of control to the point that I was looking for love in all the “wrong” places.  Thus, I made poor choices just to be loved by anyone.

God placed people in my life who would “attempt” to encourage and uplift me, but I was too far gone then, and couldn’t accept it.  However, today, I am grateful because I can walk in confidence with my head held high.  I no longer feel that I’m less than, and I absolutely “refuse” to accept people’s negative views about me — no matter what!

Don’t let people’s “opposing” thoughts or views of you matter; I don’t care who they are.  Don’t let them trample and trod all over you and your emotions.  Stop walking around with your head bowed down to the ground in an effort to make yourself invisible to the world because of “them”.  Take your power back.  Say “Excuse me”, as you “snatch” it right out of their hands.  What I have learned is that people feel inadequate about themselves and are often insecure, so they “pick” on other people, to make them “seem” superior.

You are victorious!  You are a Queen!  Walk in your “royalty”.  Always remember, GurlYouGotItGoinOn!sunset-hands-love-woman.jpg

Depression

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There are days that you feel as though you can’t go on.  Nothing is going right.  No matter what you do, you can’t seem to catch a break.  Your relationship has gone haywire.  Your children are driving you to the psych ward.  You absolutely hate your life, and on and on and on.

You put on your “happy” face, so that no one sees your pain.  You have learned to be a great pretender — an actress, if you will.  You are ashamed to let anyone in on your “secret”.  However, you are crumbling on the inside.  You’re trying to figure a way to get out of this dark hole, but you just keep sinking deeper and deeper.  The hole continues to get darker and darker.

This was me at one time in my life.  I was so depressed that I didn’t want to live.  I thought about ending it all by taking pills, but I constantly thought what would people think of me if I did that.  Instead, I prayed every single night that I wouldn’t wake up in the morning, and every single morning I woke up.  One of my former coworkers said to me, “You’re always happy”.  She had no clue.  I had learned how to hold it all together long enough to get through the day.  On the bus ride home, I would shut down.  There were times that I almost missed my stop because I had fallen asleep.  I would go home, and pull the blinds down and get into bed.  My thought process was as long as I was sleeping, I didn’t have to deal with life or the things I didn’t like about mine.  No one knew this.

One day, I don’t even know when, things changed.  I was no longer depressed.  I should have sought out counseling, but I was just too embarrassed to talk about it.  I didn’t want people to think less of me.  What I realized is that depression is an all consuming spirit.  Every now and again, it comes back to “knock” on my door, and I immediately pray myself out of that “dark place”.

What I would like to say to you is that help is available.  You don’t have to walk around with this well kept “secret”.  Don’t be ashamed to talk about your feelings with someone that you can trust.  Don’t suffer in silence any longer.  If you need counseling, go for it.  If you need to take medication temporarily, until you “learn” how to resist those depressive thoughts, do so.  Get the help that you need so that you can be a happy, healthy you.

As always, remember #GurlYouGotItGoinOn.

Introduction

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Hi, my name is Grace Deveraux, and the purpose of my blog is to speak to the hearts of women everywhere.  Why women?  Because as a woman, I can relate to our joys, our fears, our disappointments, our successes, our pain, our insecurities, our strengths and our weaknesses.

As I write, I will share some of my stories with the hope that not only will you be enlightened, but that we will grow “old” together.  I want us to “learn” how to shed the “unwanted and unneeded weight” that has literally been draining and sucking the “life out of us”.  I want us to feel FREE no matter the circumstance.  We are in this together!

My hashtag will always be #GurlYouGotItGoinOn because sometimes we need to be reminded — period.